我们深知:我们是属于未来的,但我们更加深知我们的思想和生活经验沉积是属于过去的传统教育下所形成的。我们以很多遮蔽自己真实和欲望的巧妙手段获得了世俗的安宁,但是这些安宁和痛苦却把我的思想和欲望无情的送上了世俗的绞架。内心与世俗的对抗,生命的精神追求与严酷的生存需要之间的巨大矛盾冲突我只能用虚幻的绘画手法来表达。我信仰什么?我灵魂的归属究竟是什么?在我们这个特定的时代背景和现实生存空间背景中,似乎很难做出回答。关键在于我们不能克服现实,因而对产生在传统的精神理想和当下生存状态现实间产生了看似和谐的幻觉,但我依然痛苦。因此我举棋不定,犹如中了魔的“怪首”在现实与梦幻间奔忙。
我的画面语言:在西洋油画现实表达手法和中国传统花鸟画之间,存在一种对比和呼应的关系。在一个牢笼般现代的工业监狱里我们谁是机器和人难以辨别,庄子日:尔非鱼安知鱼之乐乎。我们在为生活奔忙劳累,但是生存的快乐充满着我们的生命。在一个固有的空间内强调生命的状态。在传统的工笔画下,究竟是什么灵魂将这扭曲,缤纷繁杂亮丽的画面,侵袭在那一片迷漫梦幻的花鸟中?迷茫的我却想逃离,幻想逍遥自在地游戏人间。
Creative Statement
We know we belong to the future, but we are more aware of the experiences deposition of our thoughts and life are formed in the past traditional education. We get the worldly peace by many ingenious means through masking our true desires. However, the peace and pain sent my thoughts and desires ruthlessly to the secular gallows. I can only use the illusory painting techniques to express the confrontation of inner and secular and the great conflicts between the the pursuit of spirit life with the harsh living needs. What do I believe in? What is the attribution of my soul? In this particular background of era and living space, it seems difficult to answer the questions. The key is that we can not overcome the reality so the seemingly harmonious illusion emerged from the traditional ideal and the present living condition. I am still carrying. I am indecisive, like a "strange head" seems to be possessed returning between the reality and the dream.
My picture language shows a contrasting and echoing relationship between the realistic methods of Western oil painting and traditional Chinese painting. In such a cage like a modern industrial prison, we can not identify whether we are machines or we are people after all. Chuang Tzu said, if you are not a fish, how can you know the happiness that the fish has? We are bustling about the life untill we are tired, but the joy of life is always full of our lives. I would like to emphasis on the state of life in an inherent space. Meanwhile, I still wonder what twists the soul on the Chinese meticulous painting, with the colorful, complex and beautiful picture invaded by a hazy dream of flowers and birds. I feel confused and want to escape, imagining myself rambling around the world freely and leisurely.
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